Starting sixth form last September was quite exciting with all the new
exciting things i was going to be learning about. I chose BTEC triple drama and
for the first 3 months i really enjoyed it. I'd made closer friends with people
in my class and made new friends. However, after the Christmas pantomime all
the work started piling up and i was feeling very overwhelmed. In BTEC drama
you have to do a logbook for each unit-over two years you do 18 units, a
logbook if you don't know is where you would reflect and you say about
character work and research into the plays you do. I enjoyed the logbook bit
for the fact that i could decorate it and make it look fancy (that is not the
point of a logbook)
I was feeling worse and less into drama as the days went by so i went
and spoke to the (kind of) head of sixth form. She told me that she doesn't see
me having an office job because she knows at how creative i am. I wasn't happy
and i think people could tell. I told one of my closest friends this and she
said 'I’ll support you no matter what you choose but before you let go of it
ima do everything possible to find your drama spark again!' It's great to have supportive
friends around you that want what is best for you and to make you feel happy
again. A couple months down the line we were going to the theatre to perform a
play we did for connexions500 it was a very big thing for us. I'd found my
light again and I thought I’d stick by it. I had done my logbooks on time for
the most part anyway i was leaving most of it to do before the deadline and i
wouldn't go sleep until late due to stressing about logbooks. During year 12 i
napped a lot i don't know if it was down to drama but i was stressing a lot
about it - learning lines, getting the right movement and everything.
On my final day of year 12. I went to the head of drama (my drama
teacher and my form tutor) and i said to her that i wanted to leave i found a
college course and i wanted to do that. I think she knew that i truly didn't
want to do drama for the rest of my life. I want to be a tattoo artist. When i
told her about the art and design course she asked if I’d applied and when i
said i hadn't she told me to do it right at that moment, She was is
very supportive and agreed with my choice. I went in to do some painting at the
school this holiday and i told her about my interview about my enrolment and
she was pleased for me.
I bought some henna cones to do some tattoo designs on myself to
practice on keeping my hand steady and getting small details. My friends
started asking for them and i was all for doing it because it was practice and
i enjoyed doing it and they always smiled at the outcome of it, which was good
to see. I have designed some people tattoos that they are getting done which is
insane! I am now getting a tattoo kit for Christmas this year to start getting into
my future dream job.
I'm leaving year 12 with i think a pass or a merit in BTEC drama (I
won't be able to get my results until next year) I’m leaving happy because I’m
going into something that i want to do for the rest of my life. I'm excited for
the future and to try new things and meet new people. This is a different
path than what I expected to take but it’s the right one.